She blinded me with science

I attended three nights of Shakespeare recently thanks to a generous gift. It was really a highlight of my year to say the least. I love Shakespeare and will reread the play the day of and then watch it that night. The Oregon Shakespeare Festival’s rendition of Love’s Labour’s Lost was the best I’ve seen. […]

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Happiness and virtue

I am rereading Boethius: The Consolation of Philosophy and 1/2 through it I am getting bored with it. I’m not opposed to the use of God as a prime mover or original cause, or ultimate form, or the like. These are hardly new and like statements are found from Plato to Aristotle to Spinoza to […]

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Resonate

Back in the 90’s I was stationed in Tennessee for a few months where I was learning the basics of aircraft electrical systems. We had four-man rooms and every floor had a communal “head”, aka, a bathroom. There were toilet stalls on one side, sinks and mirrors on the other, and a large open room […]

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Patriarchy and Men

I’ve changed my opinion a lot over the last couple of years. I’ve grown to distrust pretty much everything that comes out of gender studies. Most everyone that I come across who exclaims #woke is usually someone trying to push an agenda of some sort. Some of the most oppressive and dogmatic thought I’ve ever come across comes from those who profess to fight such oppression. 

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I almost beat someone up today

It is a beautiful day today. Especially driving down River Road in Salem. Sunny. 70’s. Top down on the Mustang. Nightwish playing on the radio. Life is pretty good. I decide to stop at a convenience store to get some protein before going to CrossFit in an hour. I’m a bit dehydrated and low on […]

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Thor will smash your face in

Thor was the muscle of Asgard. When the gods needed their bouncer to come and trounce a troublesome giant, they looked to Thor. You need security. Basic needs. Before you do anything, you establish your patrol base, 360 security, and ensure your weapons are all faced out. Only then can you go to sleep (actually, after planning, maintenance, comms, R and S, egress routes, etc…). Before you can have arts and literature and other benefits of culture, you need safety.

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Stoic Throat Punches

Because much of the time the expression of anger would be out of proportion to the situation. So many of the men would simply suppress the energy. Like holding onto an internal explosion. I remember telling my therapist that I often felt like a million pieces that wanted to fly apart, held together with old Scotch tape. This dichotomy of holding it in, or exploding out, creates a curious energy as the act of not doing anything adds to the fuel of anger in his thoughts. For the thoughts associated with the anger are often righteous in their tone. And it does not take much to be convinced that holding back isn’t worth it. In a battle of wills, righteousness will often win out over fear. In this heated internal world of thought I’ve injected Stoic thought into the mix.

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Trolls

I’m back to trolls. They call, quietly, in the dark. They swim in the water and climb up the rails of old bridges under a crescent moon. They wait for a careless passerby, not paying attention, that they might snatch with their clawed hands and drag into the black waters below.

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Running on Faith

Running at night helps my mind not see the distant trees. I know I’m running 7 miles, so why does it matter about the trees in the distance and how long I’ve staring at them worrying about how slow I’m going? Thoughts, like gear, also can fit into the mission essential, useful, or stupid categories. If I am focusing only on the process, after having committed to the plan of running a 7 mile strip of land, then I don’t need to worry about anything else. Just run. And that is each step. Each step, running in the fog at night, is a chance to make that step a good one. CrossFit has the same approach with make each rep count. They don’t mean to make each rep a PR. But instead to make each rep as good of a technique as you can. CrossFit is about functional fitness, not lifting weights. Functional fitness is about living life well. If you scale workouts to where your level is so that each rep is something you do well, focus on form not result, process not product, then you’ll get stronger. The weights change, but the approach doesn’t. The distances of a run change, a 4 mile run used to be my long run, but the process doesn’t. Battles and wars change, but the soldiers don’t.

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