I am in chapter two of book four of “The Brothers Karamazov“. Alyosha is alone with his father who is telling him his philosophy. As I sit here reading this, I keep in mind myown thoughts, my own philosophy. Oh my how my philosophy has changed has changed so very much over the years. And I am (hopefully) on the edge of really getting into the nitty gritty of my life and its philosophy. Will I make more bold and wide changes in my outlook? What will it be like when I am sixty-five? As I sit here thinking that life is a reaction of the cosmos, intelligence a result of life, and teh human consciousness a result of it all… I think about the virtue question from the athiest in the book and Ivan’s statement and my own lacking rebuttal to it. And I stare around me, a room filled with people drinking coffee and reading and I marvel at each individual consciousness… each individual world within the world around me. It is awe inspiring to think about, the resulting conscious, self-reflecting nature of each individual human being around me. Descartes’ “cogito ergo sum”. Also, there is this feeling of empathy within me. I want good for others as I want it for myself.
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I was born in Arkansas and graduated high school in Mississippi. I joined the Marine Corps in 1989 and travelled the world for the next five years. From 1994 until 2004 I lived in California, Arkansas, Texas, and Oregon, going to different colleges (UAM, UH, UO, PSU) trying to 'follow my bliss' and live a life. In 2004 I joined the Oregon National Guard and deployed to Iraq. I recently completed two degrees (psychology and philosophy) at Portland State. I currently work as an infantry instructor, a cofacilitator with a domestic violence group, and a military culture consultant with a psychology research department. I intend to go to grad school and further my psychology training. My interests are of what makes a life worth living, what makes people flourish, what gives us hope after trauma, how do we continue to go on instead of giving up, how do we build good relationships, how do we 'live'? These have been central questions of my own for decades. My interests are what seem to be as diverse as ecology and environmentalism (politics, ethics, biology) to gender studies (masculinity, gender roles, schemas and scripts) to trauma and resilience (PTSD, depression, anxiety, anger issues, domestic violence). Yet I would argue that they are not diverse but really interconnected, related and influential to each other. My writings here are usually as it comes to me. Here and there are a paper that I turned in to a class or the like. But for the most part these are my wrestling with ideas and emotions. As such there are contradictions and changes and failings as well as insights and triumphs. View all posts by Eddie