Between eight and ten years ago I regularly went to therapy. I was struggling with two major forces at the time. The first was that my sense of normal, the horizon of my moral landscape, was still that of someone on a deployment. This is to say that in this context there is a survive […]Read More … or should I get a cup of coffee?
I quit running long marathons last year after having discovered Spartan Races. This, plus my love of CrossFit and I quit doing the many 10, 15, 20 mile runs I was always doing. In the nine months I’ve done very little pure exercise, spending most of my time in instructor duties. Easy to start making […]Read More Running and trying not to die (or trying to live)
I want to love. I want to have a love where I can share the totality of my being with another person and for them to see me, and I to see them. I want them to actively bring out the best within me, pushing me and angering me when necessary, but always loving me. I want to be the sort to do that in return.Read More Losing my self
“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?” The problem with quotes by philosophers is that much of […]Read More Dare. Risk. Dream.
I hear a couple of you struggle with jealousy and view it as proof that you are inferior or not as developed as the enlightened. I wanted to say, with respect to everyone in the room, that you are not underdeveloped. You are feeling jealousy for different reasons, each of your heart’s are telling you something important, something you need. Instead of viewing your jealousy as something with distaste, honor it, cherish it, welcome it into your dialogue with yourself and with your partner. What does it say? Jealousy is often called an immature emotion coming from someone with a poor sense of self-esteem. What if jealousy was something else, something protective, that was always looking out for your deepest wants? What are those wants? Only in honoring jealousy can we fully enter into that discussion and free ourselves to experience what we truly need. It is here that we become ourselves and not mirrors of our fears. It is here that we learn love.Read More It is okay
Suppose something negative happens, such a flat tire or termites infest your house or whatever. It is just dumb bad luck that you got it, or if it is from another person, they are intentionally doing it to harm/hurt you. If it happens to other people, however, they get a flat tire because they waited too long to get new tires, or they weren’t doing preventative maintenance on their house, or they deserve the reprimand from someone.Read More Is life fair?
While attending a week-long training at the library in Medford, Oregon and during a break I was standing in the window, observing the scene across the street. Across the street is a small Italian pizzeria and outside on the sidewalk were two people with a table set up and were offering some paraphernalia. I could […]Read More Walk in this world
Anybody can become angry – that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way – that is not within everybody’s power and is not easy. – AristotleRead More Courage
And so I search for those things are are espresso for the mind, that are tools that help me let go of my frantic life of shoulds and expectations and instead live with mindfulness.Read More espresso for the mind
This fear that someone will *get over* on the *system* is fueled by the very real *lack of belief* in the system itself. Because the person believes a little in the BJW system, but not 100%, that seed of doubt is enough to spur them to *take matters in their own hands* and create laws to restrict the healthier options. I wish some of the desire for action would spur these individuals to being at least a little bit compassionate toward the poor. But it is easier to think that both *sluts get pregnant* and *lazy people are on welfare* than it is to look at each case as it is and, at the very least, ask *how would Jesus act if He were standing before this person this very minute?*Read More Abortion and a Just World