Wolf Dream

It was a couple of nights ago, perhaps a week. But I had a dream early in the morning where I went into a deep forest. It was twilight, not fully night or day. I’m uncertain if it was dawn, or dusk, or perhaps actually midday and the depth of the wood made it dark, […]

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Dreams of fleas, fighting aliens, and Dexter (the usefulness of emotions)

Back to the alien battle. I now looked at the humans in the star fighters attacking the aliens. The aliens were supposedly advanced species from outer space without emotion. Why would humans have an advantage in logic vs logic thinking? Our tactics would likely be infantile to theirs. Randomness, I believe, doesn’t truly exist. Chaos theory shows order out of randomness while it also shows the limits of knowledge. Just because we continue to push the boundaries of the unknown does’t mean there aren’t rules outside the light of measurement, rules that influence actions within.

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Macwriter

Mac kills PC in so many areas. I find that my workflow crashes to a halt when I have to go into the office and use their Windows systems. I hesitated in downloading any Microsoft programs onto my Mac because I don’t like anything about them, how they are organized. Even using Excel, which is […]

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Dream

I awoke. In therapy we ask people to try to localize their emotions in their body, to describe the sensations they feel in their stomach, their arms, their legs. What does joy feel like? Guilt? Sorrow? I awoke in my bed, in the dark, and I felt a heaviness as though I were filled with sand, an entanglement as though all of me were tied in knots. I was dense and lethargic and it seemed as though my very blood had stopped its flow. Lying in the bed I felt a very deep sense of grief, loss, sorrow, and guilt. And I cherished the rich emotion.

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Thank you

A couple of days ago I went for a walk in the park.  It was late afternoon and the weather was warm.  Not warm in the sun but actually warm.  I had my binos with me and my prayer beads in my hand.  I was taking my time.  I looked over to the hawk’s nest […]

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A Dream I had this morning

I was getting ready for bed and closed the window.  I’m naked after all.  But I remembered the moon was bright on this clear night and I wanted the rays to come in.  So I opened the window blinds and laid down on the bed.  For a few brief moments I was happy with silver […]

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Ignorance

Here is another entry. I am soon to go to work, however I am standing on the threshold of a sea of ideas in my mind. I cannot really classify these thoughts or the images within, yet it is mystical. While I look out over the horizon in my mind I cannot tell more than […]

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A Static Universe

Here is another entry. I am soon to go to work, however I am standing on the threshold of a sea of ideas in my mind. I cannot really classify these thoughts or the images within, yet it is mystical. While I look out over the horizon in my mind I cannot tell more than […]

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ER

Final Entry for Journalworks……December 5, 95 A retrospective look at what I’ve learned and about myself and my surroundings. This was intially thought to be an easily accomplishable task when I first read the Journaworks sheet. I am now pondering on what exactly did I learn if anything at all. I suppose I could say […]

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