Always Ready. Always There.

When I was an active duty Marine in the early nineties, I would look down upon the reserves. They weren’t real military. They were weekend warriors. They were nasty civilians that couldn’t hack the military and every once in a while they put on BDU’s and pretend to be soldiers. A year after I left […]

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why

Tonight I fell, again, into depression. It has been happening a lot lately. This year has been rough. This afternoon I laid on my couch for I don’t know how long. Minutes? Hours? The tv was off. The lights were dim. And I stared into space. I am without energy. I have wondered, all night, […]

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Forgiveness

I have held a grudge against my biological mother for a long time. Wait, not a grudge… I’ve been indifferent to her. She didn’t hit me… no more than the typical spankings that most kids got in Arkansas in the 70’s and 80’s. I don’t have any harsh memories of her spankings. The last time […]

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Parent Lottery

I’ve downloaded a book recently into my iBooks. The Last Lecture: Legacy Edition and I am just beginning it. It is is a good read thus far but I had to stop for a moment and think about my own dad. You see the author makes the point that he won the parent lottery and […]

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Macwriter

Mac kills PC in so many areas. I find that my workflow crashes to a halt when I have to go into the office and use their Windows systems. I hesitated in downloading any Microsoft programs onto my Mac because I don’t like anything about them, how they are organized. Even using Excel, which is […]

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A walk in the dark

Tonight was very slow in the bar. Memorial Day weekend and the State Fair going on. So I let the other bartender close and I went home. I stopped by Barnes and Noble and picked up a few books, but then I put them back down and came home. I did not buy a book. […]

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back from vacation

Back to the grind. I took a week off and went home to Arkansas to see my family. I had no plans. I just wanted to see them. I left late at night and arrived in Little Rock early Wednesday morning. Mom and Dad were there to pick me up. We went home and goofed […]

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letter to my sister

Sis, Back in the middle of December I got a call from a guy who owns a construction company in southern Oregon. He had bought a strip club in Eugene four months ago and his manager left for California. I had worked with the owner before when he did the construction at the club I […]

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Halloween

I was invited to go to Divas halloween thing. I thought I would go, only to see my friends. But I didn’t really feel up to going out in public. Tonight was a night for being alone. I watched couple groups of people cross the parking lot through the night and before sunset I took […]

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