Going Down

It is the weekend and my day is filled with books, coffee, and incense. I put on some good music and sat in front of my altar for a while. On my altar sit a variety of things. It is less a geometric space akin to a physical mandala as some altars are, but more […]

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Niflheim

I went on a hike a few weeks ago. It was a bright, crisp day, and the colors of Spring were vibrant. I felt energized just by being outside in the forest. The trails, cutting through the trees, were clear and contrasted with the surrounding rushes and grasses. While I was free to go in […]

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The Green Man

I recently attended Faerieworlds in Oregon. I’ve gone several years now and this was the first year that I started with the opening circle dance and finished with the last act, camping out the entire weekend. I loved it. I always do, but this time was different. It was at Hornings Hideout, lots of trees […]

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Warriors: The Feminine Makes Us Stronger

We have constrained our values of what is useful and effective within a context of war to also define what is right and wrong outside of war. The harsh necessities of war have given us our moral guidance as human beings and are limit the natural proclivities of our very nature to the basest level imaginable. Great human souls can indeed wage great war, yet war does not make great souls. If it did we would not have the number of veterans who still struggle with life after war as we do today.

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Macwriter

Mac kills PC in so many areas. I find that my workflow crashes to a halt when I have to go into the office and use their Windows systems. I hesitated in downloading any Microsoft programs onto my Mac because I don’t like anything about them, how they are organized. Even using Excel, which is […]

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Dream

I awoke. In therapy we ask people to try to localize their emotions in their body, to describe the sensations they feel in their stomach, their arms, their legs. What does joy feel like? Guilt? Sorrow? I awoke in my bed, in the dark, and I felt a heaviness as though I were filled with sand, an entanglement as though all of me were tied in knots. I was dense and lethargic and it seemed as though my very blood had stopped its flow. Lying in the bed I felt a very deep sense of grief, loss, sorrow, and guilt. And I cherished the rich emotion.

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trauma- masculinity and war

I did some reading from Chapter 3 Disconnection  of the book Trauma and Recovery and had to get up and go out for a walk.  Too much to sit still I had to allow myself some sort of anchor when dealing with the themes of this book. In talking about symptoms of PTSD and veterans […]

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myth, depression – the minotaur

I was given a gift of a free Tapas Acupressure Therapy (TAT) session by someone who attended one of my PTSD lectures.  At the same time I have not been to my regular counseling session for several weeks.  My anger issues have gotten better with more attention being given to them.  I noted a strange […]

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warriorhood, PTSD, myth, masculinity, treatment, character, strength, resiliency, and more

There may be a solely physical reason for PTSD.  Perhaps I should back up, for the physicalists would claim that ‘thoughts’, seemingly immaterial ‘things’ are, when it is all said and done, the effects of physical actions.  That is, atoms and molecules and neurons and neurotransmitters and so forth.  I am inclined to agree with […]

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Projection

In my reading tonight I come upon a broader discussion of the psychological act of projection. It isn’t necessarily new to me as journal entries from the late 90’s have speculation about Synchronicity and projection. Yet this is a pleasant reminder to me. As a witch, a psychologist, a human being I ought to give […]

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